Thank you, God
The song below is Gracious Tempest by Hillsong Young & Free
Feel free to listen to the song while you read my blog post 🙂
The quotes below were found when I couldn’t sleep – and when I read them I knew that I would be okay.
When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.” -Isaiah 43:2
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus – Philippians 4:6-7
It’s been a rough month. Getting through a masters degree isn’t easy. I’m blessed, I know, but when you’re in the midst of a lot of pressure, it’s easy to lose sight of that. Throw in life in the equation of graduate school and it sent me spiraling down places I have not been in in a while. I felt distant from God for months even though I knew that getting closer to Him was the one thing I needed to do for a while. When things hit rock bottom, I didn’t know what to do anymore. I prayed because it was the only thing left that I knew how to do.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything- James 1:2-4
My faith is private and prayers are intimate for me…but if this blog post can make an impact on one person’s life, then I know it’s worth it.
I’m writing this blog post because I want to give credit to God. I am away from my family and friends that are usually the core of my support system but somehow I was graced with an incredible community here at SIT Graduate Institute. I have the most incredible, understanding, and gracious professors who solely and sincerely want every single one of their students to rise and grow through this experience. I have the supportive classmates who always gave a shoulder to lean on or just stood by me even though I didn’t want to say anything. In the end of the night, before sleeping, everyone else disappears and its just me and my prayers.
Getting through this rough patch of life brought me closer to God, my friends, and family both on campus and at home. I intentionally decided not to drink alcohol or pursue other unhealthy habits… I gave away my junk food and chocolate because I knew that I have a tendency of stress eating. It’s been done before and I knew it was something that wouldn’t bring me healing. What did help me heal was prayer, and not ignoring the emotions that were present and overflowing.
And I can say that things aren’t always going to be painted with the brightest colors but dark ones will be splotched on the painting as well. I am slowly learning how to embrace these darkest moments and I remember that someday soon they’ll propel me into a brighter and more joyful day.
I want to thank you, God. For absolutely everything and everyone you have blessed me with and even the trials that you have thrown my way.